The last person to make me uncomfortable was a woman in late 2017. No man has made me feel the way she did in years. She told me I was into women, that I wanted her.
...And this is what it's like.
“Common then, its ready” My husband smiles at me as he drags me from the bed, this will help you to feel better, common then” he pleads.I sob more and I can’t tell if it’s because of my hurt or at the idea of him caring after me so much, because every time he tries … Continue reading My C-PTSD and Cannabis Story
Hey you, I know you didn’t intend on crying so much today and you didn’t think you’d end up hiding under a blanket sobbing in the middle of the day.I know you didn’t intend on your Monday being quite this rough.You’ve had a insanely good few months, on the mental health front which is probably … Continue reading When you’d rather die, read this.
When I began Cognitive Processing Therapy I went in with a few main struggles. I had been through countless hours of therapy already and this CPT was a study specifically aimed at those with PTSD. While I had done so much work already I had a few small issues I needed to work on mainly; … Continue reading How Far I’ve Come: Therapy Impact Statements
A healing journey is a personal one and people will tell you the right way to heal, they’ll tell you what it means to heal, what it means to forgive, anything you want to find… it’s all out there.They’ll tell you whose fault it is, and whose fault it isn’t with clarity.But each journey is so … Continue reading The Journey to Forgiveness
And well, I’m not dying. But it sure feels like it and I can’t tell the difference at this point. My thoughts race to Shaun coming home from work to find the kids watching Tv and me, a contorted mess on the floor after dying in my bedroom of a panic attack. And in the meantime a dog has eaten me.
My love, things are hard for you right now.It feels like you’ll never get a break and the dark cloud that feels like it is constantly looming over you threatens to drop heavy drops on your head at any minute.I know it feels like there is more bad than good and more pain than not.I … Continue reading Things are Hard now…
My reasons for this are personal. Openly, and utterly personal to me.